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number of times I have been in love: twice
number of hearts I have broken: One I suppose.
number of girls I have kissed in my life?: One, Laura. "But you have to kiss me!" "Jamie, can I kiss her?" "If you have to." "I DO JAMIE!" "Ok then." Haha. Drunken quesdillas.
number of continents I have visited: Uno.
number of CD's that I own: Erm. I have no clue? 30 sounds like a nice number.
number of piercing: 2. Ears.
number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Ummm...5? Maybe 4. I dunno, I think that 5 is right.
number of scars on my body: I have no idea. I don't count.
number of scars breaks on/in your heart?: A lot and it fucking sucks ass.
number of things in my past that I regret: A lot. =/ Mostly things I have said, a few things I have done. Mostly with males.


When was the last time you?

Smiled?: I guess last night.
Laughed?: Last night as well.
Cried?: Umm...earlier in the week?
Bought something?: Last night I bought food at the diner.
Danced?: I swayed to the music in the car game Dan played last night. And I dance to the song in Singles:Flirt Up Your Life all the time.
Were sarcastic?: When am I not sarcastic?
Kissed someone?: Jamie, last night.
Talked to an ex?: Jordan, last night.
Watched your favorite movie?: I don't really have a favorite movie. I have a bunch of 'em. But it wasn't that long ago I don't think.
Had a nightmare?: One that I remember? The night before last.
Last book you read: Bruce Campbell's autobiography. Still sorta reading it.
Last movie you saw: Pulp Fiction with the Mauros.
Last song you heard: Something off Steve Vai's "Ultra Zone." I still don't like him as much as Satrioni though. The Satch is my man!
Last thing you had to drink: Water. I need to drink more of it dammit.
Last time you showered: Last night.
Last thing you ate: Burger at the diner last night.
I see: Ralph Stanley's "Man of Constant Sorrow", cough syrup, Jamie's computer screen, Jamie's cell phone and charger, a wine bottle opener, cds, and a desk full of other shit.
I need: peace and happiness
I want: for me and everyone around me to be happy
I have: kickass friends and a kickass boyfriend
I love: my group of friends
I hate: the stupidness in my family
I miss: some people I have lost this past year, in many ways.
I fear: that'll I'll lose more people in many ways.
I feel: tired, hunger and anxious
I hear: Jamie snoring (its a constant thing, really)
I smell: NOTHING GOD DAMN YOU! STOP RUBBING IT IN MY FACE!
I crave: Chocolate and breakfast food like objects.

~Body~
1. What do you most like about your body?: My eyes.
2. And least?: My stomach and stretch marks.
3. How many fillings do you have?: 2 I think.
4. Do you think you're good looking?: Depends on the day and how I feel. I look ok today.
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: Often. =/
6. Do you look like any celebrities?: Nah.

~Fashion~

1. Do you wear a watch?: Not really. I did when I worked at Price Chopper though.
2. How many coats and jackets do you own?: Ummm, 4.
3. Favorite pants/skirt color?: Jeans. Skirt color? Black.
4. Most expensive item of clothing?: Ummm...Probably anything I bought from Mandee.
5. What kind of shoes do you wear?: My new shoes that Jamie bought me. Aka my airwalks that are purple and black. =D And I'm starting to get into heels ironically. Where the fuck did this girly girlyness come from?
6. Describe your style in one word: Lazy. Most of the time anyways.

~Your Friends~

1. Do your friends 'know' you?: Eh, some of them somewhat. Not many of them do really.
2. What do they tend to be like?: Weirdos. The good type though.
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked?: I listen and try and help. I'm also blunt without being offensive most of the time.
4. How many people do you tell everything to?: How many do I tell everything to? One, Jamie. How many would I? Two. Jamie and Jords probably.

~Music/TV/Film/Books~
1. Favorite band ever?: Umm...too hard. Not gonna pick dammit.
2. Most listened to bands: Bad Religion, Tool, Nightwish.
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking?: Yep. A Jameson of the Mauro varity.
4. Can you play an instrument?: My mouth. =p;
5. Type of music most listened to?: Probably metal right now.
6. Type never listened to?: Rap.
7. Favorite book?: Syrup by Maxx Barry

~Underwear~

1. Ladies, do you like to wear thongs?: Noooo. Though I was tempted to try when I lost weight. But I'm scared my ass is going to hurt. =(
2. What is the nicest color for underwear?: Black or dark purple.
3. Do you find it uncomfortable without a bra?: In public I do. I still sorta do at "home."
6. Do you make it a habit of showing people your underwear?: Not really.
~Religion~

1. Do you detest religion?: Eh, to each their own.
2. How do you think this universe was formed?: I'm guessing scienctifically.
3. If you currently follow a religion, do you think people who belong to another religion are ignorant?: Not at all. Like I said, to each their own.
4. If you were in a hostage situation, and you were given a choice, to either praise the demon they follow or die, what would you choose?: Praise the Demon.

~Homosexuality~

1. What is the first thing you think when you see two gay guys or lesbians holding hands?: Adorable usually.
2. Do you detest homosexuality?: Not at all.
3. Do you agree or disagree with gay or lesbian couples bringing up children?: Nope. If they are good people then why the fuck do you care?

~Clothing/Hair

1. Do you own any plaid clothing?: Pjs.
2. Do you own Converse shoes?: Nope.
3. Do you own Saucony shoes?: Nope.
4. Do you own old school Nikes?: Nopers.
5. Do you wear tight pants?: Yep, but thats cause my ass is huge haha.
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: Not to my knowledge.
7. Do you know what a squatter flap is?: ??? WTF?
8. Do you own a messenger bag?: Yeppers.
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest?: Yep, yep.
10. Do you own braces?: Nopers.
11. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth?: I guess?
12. Do you have short, shaggy hair?: Nah, long ass mother fucking hair that might get cut today!
13. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches?: Nopers.
14. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon?: Nah.
15. Do you think mohawks are neat?: Yeah, for those that can pull them off.
16. Is your hair black or red?: Blonde...and still fucking purple from that sharpie. Teaches me to be bored!
17. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye?: Not really.
18. Do you own a bandana?: Nopers.
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears?: Nopers.
20. Are you amused by safety pins?: I guess.
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute?: Yeah.
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them?: I don't think so.
23. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London?: Nope.
24. Do you enjoy leopard print?: Its ok.

~Habits/Beliefs~

29. Do you dislike preps?: Nah, thats a dumb way to do things.
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic?: I like some of their stuff. Overpriced to hell and back though.
31. Do you smoke cigarettes?: Ew, no.
33. Are you a thin waif?: I guess no?
34. Are you vegan/vegetarian?: Chicken is yummy.
35. Do you think meat is murder?: Eh, whatever.
36. Do your nighttime activities usually involve drunken underage vomiting?: Not usually.
Have you ever slept in an alley or park?: Not for long.
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week?: Ew no.
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower?: Yeah, not fun at all. Gross city.
40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor?: Nopers. Not to my knowledge.
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouacis?: No.
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac?: I can't like him if I don't know who he is.
43. Should Mumia Abu-jamal be freed from prison?: Umm...sure?
45. Do you say rad?: Nopers.
46. Do you say rockin?: Noper.
47. Do you say punk rawk?: Nopers.
48. Do you shout the word oi?: No, not unless you count Oy vey.
49. Do you say punk's not dead?: Eh, its pretty much dead people.
50. Do you say punk is dead?: No, cause it is pretty much.

~Music~

51. Do you like bands with "theory" in their name?: Not to my knowledge.
52. Do you like bands with "the"?: Uh, yeah.
53. Do you ever precede your own name with "the" at the beginning?: I have before.
4. Do you like bands with the F word in their name or album title?: I can't think right now. So I'll say yes to make you happy.
55. Do you think "Christian punk" is an oxymoron?: Whatever.
56. Are Blink 182 fans posers?: I HATE BLINK 182. DIE.
57. Do you have frequent debates over what exactly constitutes a sellout?: LOOONNNGGG time ago.
58. Have you ever brought the headlining band food?: Never.
59. Do you have show flyers affixed to your walls?: Nah, I don't really go to shows.

What's the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?: Oh man. Umm...a lot of nice things have been said. Recently I'll say "You are the most important person to me. I should have said that sooner, when I made the promise." *swoon*
What's the meanest thing you have ever said to another person?: Umm... anything to Natalie or my mom I guess.
What do you love most about your job/school?: Job/school:The people and the fun.
What do you hate most about your job/school?: Job: Mike. No doubt about it. He pisses me off. School: The work, stress, and depressing shit that goes down.
Do you get parking karma [a space close by when you need it most]?: If I drove I could answer this heh.
Do you get shopping karma [your item[s] on sale when you need it/the most?: I guess.
Are you patient?: Most of the time.
What tries your patience most?: Jamie, Jasmine, Rajiv.
Are you polite?: Most of the time I try to be.
Are you kind?: I try my damndest. Most people tell me I succeed.
What makes it hard for you to stay sweet?: People who use me, treat me like shit, blame things all on me.
Do you have a bad temper?: Not really. Though when you piss me off fucking watch out. It takes a lot to do that though.
Do you respect your elders?: Yeah, for the most part. Some of them don't really deserve respect.
What's your favorite way to spend an afternoon off?: Sleep, relaxing with friends.
What's your favorite food?: Pizza and chicken.
What's your least favorite food?: Pork.
What's your favorite childhood comfort food?: Chocolate.
What's your now that you're an adult and can afford it favorite comfort food?: Still chocolate.
If you're over 18, have you ever have ice cream and pizza for breakfast?: Yeppers, I have.
How do you sleep [on your side, on your back, all sprawled out, fetal position, etc]?: I move a lot. So everything I suppose.
Are you a blanket hogger?: Yep, yep.
What's the ideal time of day to wake up?: 10 or 11.
What's the ideal time to go to bed?: 12 or 1.
What time did you go to bed last night?: Like, 4 or 6.
What's your guilty pleasure [or pleasures]?: Sum 41, food, and other things I won't say. ;)
If someone offered you $10,000 to go without your computer for 60 days, would you accept the offer?: HELL YES.
If you could go back to an earlier point in your life, knowing then what you know now, when would it be and would you really choose to go back?: I wouldn't choose to go back. Everything that happened to me happened for a reason and led me to be where I am right now. And where I am right now is a pretty sweet setup. =)
If you could have any superpowers, which would they be?: Flying or reading people's minds/changing their thoughts. I'd abuse the fuck outta that power haha.
What car would you drive if money was no object?: A tricked out VW Mini Bus.
Where would you live if money was no object?: New Zealand.
What was the worst day of your life?: When my grandfather died.
When you think of your wedding day, do you ever picture a specific groom?: Yeah. *blushes* And its not Marco Sanchez anymore! Haha, silly young Carol.
What would you name your children?: Lily and Damon.
What are three nice things that have never happened to you, that you wish would?: Stability, a loving family, and having a shit ton of money and being able to spend it with no worries.
What are some song lyrics that describe you, as you are right now at this point in your life?:

"What's the difference of never knowing at all?
When every step I take is always too small.
Maybe it's just something I can't admit but lately,
I feel like I don't give a shit. "

"Can't find a good reason, can't find hope to believe
This can't last forever
time won't make things better
I feel so alone,
can't help myself
no one knows if this is worthless
tell me."

"so jaded frustrated, it's all so complicated."

"Blah blah blah blah
I feel like never waking up
Blah blah blah blah"

"So when you hold onto the past then you
Will break down what little is left.
There's nothing more you can't ignore,
And say it makes no difference to me.
Now that you're older life's weighing on your
shoulders.
You can't seem to keep things so perfectly straight.
With most things so basic you might as well face it.
You can't help but worry it's all just begun
So when you hold onto the past then you,
Will break down what little is left.
There's nothing more you can't ignore,
And say it makes no difference to me."

"It's not in what you do, it's more in what you say."

I think thats good enough.