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caruhDisclaimer: I bitch, moan, and point out things I deem wrong in this post. If you can't take it, don't read it. Making this filtered in my opinion does not suit the post. And if you disagree that is nice, but remember this is my journal and I can and will say what I please.
I hate it when people play bullshit games. You like me, you like me. If you don't, you don't. Just fucking tell me and don't play these stupid childish games. Its really not worth my time and the other people who you keep involving and pretending to be nice to. In fact that was rather "rude." Get the guts to tell me to my face or just tolerate me being around and be civil. I'd name names but I'm pretty sure said person can figure it out.
I hate it when I do things with people and it gets swept under the rug. "oh I spent x amount of hours with Carol but I'm not really going to say anything about that." I'd understand if you forgot but every time? I don't think you guys are forgetting. I get the feeling you just don't want to say.
I'm sick and tired of being ignored. I'm especially sick and tired of people thinking they have an idea of who I am but really have no fucking clue. And I think that is the majority of people I know. And pretty much everyone at Purchase. I think they have me in this "She's a rich little girl who wants to fuck the pirates and knows nothing about role play or gaming" role, which is FAR FAR FAR from me. I'm in NO way rich (I'm fucking lower class for Pete's sake), I'm taken (and very happily I might add), and granted I'm no extreme gamer but I'm not a fucking girl who claims to game and plays fucking solitaire. I'm beginning to feel that Oden, Kat, and Joe are the only ones who don't think this way. And I definitely know that Kat and Oden know more about me, but thats because they hang out more with me. But it seems that every time I try to hang out with others, they are too wrapped up in what they think I am and not what I really am.
I'm sick and tired of being everyone's joke. "Let's make fun of Carol cause she's nice." And yes, I don't mind being the butt of a joke every so often, but every five seconds gets redundant, annoying, and just not humourous.
Maybe its just cause I'm stressed for reasons that I really can't post here, filtered or not. Maybe its cause tired or cause my period is coming soon. Or maybe its just cause I'm a bitch. I just can't seem to get out of this rut. Its definitely "lock yourself in your room and play games" time.
I hate it when people play bullshit games. You like me, you like me. If you don't, you don't. Just fucking tell me and don't play these stupid childish games. Its really not worth my time and the other people who you keep involving and pretending to be nice to. In fact that was rather "rude." Get the guts to tell me to my face or just tolerate me being around and be civil. I'd name names but I'm pretty sure said person can figure it out.
I hate it when I do things with people and it gets swept under the rug. "oh I spent x amount of hours with Carol but I'm not really going to say anything about that." I'd understand if you forgot but every time? I don't think you guys are forgetting. I get the feeling you just don't want to say.
I'm sick and tired of being ignored. I'm especially sick and tired of people thinking they have an idea of who I am but really have no fucking clue. And I think that is the majority of people I know. And pretty much everyone at Purchase. I think they have me in this "She's a rich little girl who wants to fuck the pirates and knows nothing about role play or gaming" role, which is FAR FAR FAR from me. I'm in NO way rich (I'm fucking lower class for Pete's sake), I'm taken (and very happily I might add), and granted I'm no extreme gamer but I'm not a fucking girl who claims to game and plays fucking solitaire. I'm beginning to feel that Oden, Kat, and Joe are the only ones who don't think this way. And I definitely know that Kat and Oden know more about me, but thats because they hang out more with me. But it seems that every time I try to hang out with others, they are too wrapped up in what they think I am and not what I really am.
I'm sick and tired of being everyone's joke. "Let's make fun of Carol cause she's nice." And yes, I don't mind being the butt of a joke every so often, but every five seconds gets redundant, annoying, and just not humourous.
Maybe its just cause I'm stressed for reasons that I really can't post here, filtered or not. Maybe its cause tired or cause my period is coming soon. Or maybe its just cause I'm a bitch. I just can't seem to get out of this rut. Its definitely "lock yourself in your room and play games" time.
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Date: 2004-02-19 05:47 pm (UTC)=p; My mom from the Bronx biznatch! =p;
*hugs back* But I don't live on Long Island anymore...kinda. =/ I'm kinda in upstate New York...I think...GAH!